<+_::The greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return::

Saturday, October 02, 2004

THIS IS WHAT A GIRL TOLD A GUY:

If you see me walking the road with someone else,It's not because I like his accompany... Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.

If you hear me talking about him all the timeIts not because he pleases me Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat

If you feel me falling with someone newIts not because I love him.. But because you're not there to catch me fall

If you feel lost, I too am nowhere I too don't know where the road is going

Are we gonna cross each other's path Or just completely turn around?.. Will we just let go of what we had Or go to the place where love is bound

Don't let me walk with him, It's you I want to walk with.. Don't let me talk of him ,it's you I want to talk with.. Don't let me fall for him, It's you I want to fall in love with..

"HOW DID THE GUY REPLY?"

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you I was behind you every step of the way Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stand before me

When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat I didn't want to assume anythingAnd I was afraid to lose our friendship

When you thought I wasn't there to catch you,It was because you never gave me the chance You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch

If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost I too don't know where the road is goingAre we just going to turn around,Or are we gonna cross each other's path?

Will we just let go of what we hadOr go to the place where love is bound? Don't let me walk aloneI want to walk by your side Don't let me talk of something elseIt's you I want to talk with Don't let me fall for someone elseIt's you I want to fall in love with.

WHEN I SAW YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO TALK TO YOU... WHEN I TALKED TO YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO HOLD YOU... WHEN I HOLD YOU... I WAS AFRAID TO LOVE YOU... NOW THAT I LOVE YOU ... I'M AFRAID TO LOSE YOU...

SOMETIMES LOVE HURTS...BUT IF IT DOESN'T HURT... THEN IT ISN'T LOVE...

lost in [[fairytale]]-land
9:47:00 PM

church daeee. haha.

woke up early. and so sianz. so practiced clarinet. hmm. folk song suite movement 3. argh. practically squeezeddd during da Trio part. my poor Eb clar. lolz. o well. i think i'm getting a bit better at toning down my high notes le. a bittt. haha. but now sometimes if i play da middle stave notes. then will go up one octave de. aiyoh. lolz. =X must practice practice practice le! =D

wootx. mummy going on another business trip to bangkok to settle some goods. and its like. in the middle of my exams. LOLZ. i have the house to myself. mainly coz sister will be going so often to her frenz house. and dad is always out wif frenz too =)) awesome.

went to churchhh. hmm. lalala. jency brought along her fren [not boifren lolz] this sec 4 guy. then he also regent sec de mahz. forget name le. then was like.

boi :: how come i nv see you b4??
me :: dunno. how come i nv seen YOU b4??
boi :: coz i keep a low profile mahh. =D

lolz. okkk. diaooo. haha. then.
cindy :: ehh he quite cute leh
me :: ooooo. define cute =))
cindy :: ugly but adorable.
me :: ... ...

lolz. and he was like showing mi grace and jency this book something bout witchcraft. i read the first two pages and dunno what i was reading. double diaooo. haha.

then went around yew tee looking for where-eva which sells art block. cannot find. arghh. in de end ask dad to bring mi to lot 1 lorr. lolz. then was like. on da way down de escalator. it was like. my hp pouch dangling on one finger out of the escalator lorr. then the whole escalator juz stopped SUDDENLY. yar. so shocked. lolz. but lucky nv drop hp. ALMOST dropped. haha.

// hmm. why u never >.<>
// faithhh. =))

// God is always with us ^-^

argh. stupid art. must finish by monday. EEK.

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9:46:00 PM

Friday, October 01, 2004

wahah. GIF. children's day. n CHINESE FINAL PAPER. sheez.

yepz. had lotsa ppl smsing good luck fer today's paper n some even HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY. like. argh. i'm like sooo jealous ma sister doesnt have to go to school today. argh. and to think i'm doing my chinese paper in SCHOOL.

started wif chinese paper 1. yepz. had my dictionary and all. but still didnt know WHICH one was the word. n i chose da topic " if i had a chance to go back in time.. " out of de other 2 lorr. think flunk it coz i wrote totally 'outta-de-topic' . yehh. sheez. for letter writing forgot de chinese writing format. like. argh. lolz. finished paper 1 minute b4 the time ended.
then paper 2 after recess. was like. de 'tian xie han zi' . out of 10 oni know 3. wahh. there goes my 16 marks. bye bye. lolz. then zhao ju was kinda tyco coz i oni read up on ONE of da zhao ju which i didnt study de during recess. yar. and it came out. lolz. think i will flunk it too. no confidence at all. lolz. finished da paper 2 seconds after the time ended.
then had chinese oral after lunch break. yepz. in class taking photos with everyone. haha. =)) realli v v v nice. lolz. then my turn to go out and wait. then turned out i was sitting near de corridor. and some other sec 2s from 2/7 and our class de boyz [those who finished le] was like sitting there chatting. yarr. then kingston was like v near mi and da teacher couldnt see the whole batch of them lorr. then asked kingston how to read one of de words on da oral sheet. totally cheating man >.<>
yepz. then went nuts and took lotsa photos again downstairs. then went to lot 1. eat currypuff AGAIN. arev treated mi to one. LOLZ. hmm. then met cindy grace hannah jency and gave them huggies. lolz. then saw yongwen. primary school fren. he was like 0.0 at me. yarr. i shy mahz so pretend dont see him. stupid mi. lolz. then walk walk walk heard someone calling my name v v loudly. turned and saw Geovenn. primary school fren oso. yar. and he was like REBECCA!!!! REBECCA!!! lolz. so i was like. heyy. hi =)) lolz. then some ppl came to my house lorr. then was like. got some COUPLES. lolz. then erm. wanted to watch movie at ma house. but sister and daddy in. so they cant *ahem* during da movie. lolz. poor them. then was like yar. then oni could sit beside each other quietly. haha. sister was throwing a big tantrum. [howeva u spell it] blehh. watched a realli cool movie. something SERVE. wahh. de rapping and hip hop moves in de movie was realli groovy. niceee. =))

// HAPPY CHILDRENS' DAY!!

// 2 more months to birthday. lolz.

// the happiest dae of ma life is de day i dieee.

// take it to da floor. yehhh.

think i'm falling in love with punk rock and hip hop. tian arh. lolz. btw ppl. take my quiz. over dere at my profile there. must take horz =D

lost in [[fairytale]]-land
9:32:00 PM

Please spend 1 minute to read this, it's very meaningful. [taken from wenyan's blog]

When the bus come, you look at it and you said toyourself, "eeee... so full...cannot sit down one". So you said to yourself, "I'll wait for the next one."soyou let the bus go and waited for the second bus.
Then the second bus came, you looked at it and you said, "eeee...this bus so old...surely very uncomfortable one." So you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.
After a while, another bus came. It's not crowded and not old but you said, "eeee... no air-conone...and the weather is so warm, better wait forthe next one." So again you let the bus go and decided to wait for the next bus.
Then the sky started to get dark as it is getting late. You panicked and jump on to the next on coming bus. It is not until much later that you found out that you had boarded on to the wrong bus! Soyou wasted your time and money waiting for what you want! Even if an aircon bus came, can you ensure that the aircon bus won't break down or will the air con be too cold for you?
So people...(mostly girls but guys too!) want to make sure that what you want is not wrong. But it wouldn't hurt to give other people a chance, right?If you found that the "bus" doesn't suit, you just press the red button and get off the bus!But wait...I am sure all of you have this experienced before. You saw a bus is coming (the bus you want of course) you flagged it and the driver acted blur by pretending not seeing you and zoomed pass you!
The bottom line of being loved is like waiting for a bus and whether you want to get on the bus and give the bus a chance depends totally on you and walking alone is just like being out of love.
Remember to always say what you mean. If you love someone, tell. Don't be afraid to express yourself. Reach out and tell someone what they mean to you. Because when you decide that it is the right time, it might be too late. Seize the day. Never have regrets. And most importantly, stay close to your friendsand family, for they have helped make you theperson that you are today.

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1:12:00 AM

Thursday, September 30, 2004

lalalalalala. chocolate day =D hehe. =X

met yvonne kexin phylis on da way to school. lolz. phylis owes me a sushi roll. haha. then wet weather programme so went straight to classroom. saw ppl doing english letter writing homework. then realised i didnt do oso mahz. so quickly take out and do. then. mr seow juz appeared out of no where and told mi from behind -scaring mi- rebecca if u are too LAZY to do your homework then i dont expect you to do it during announcements . aiyerr. lolz. out of so many ppl mi kana caught >.< haha ="X">then mr seow rearranged all our seats get readi fer streaming tomorrow. >.<>history. jasper scolded mrs yeo again. then all of sudden mrs yeo scolded some ~strange~ language at jasper. so diaoo. was da gift of tongues [fer those who believe in God or something.] lolz. realli. =) haha

ooo. then went home . ms chong said dont have science remedial. haha. didnt went for CG le. siti and nicholas came to my house. then they were like making melted chocolate. haha. den jency cindy and grace came to drop off something mahz. then chocolate melted le then nicholas took marshmallows and dipped it into da chocolate then give us all. haha. =D lolz =X handmade sia. lolz. then siti was playing computer mahz. so me and nick went to da kitchen. and sprend some melted chocolate on da bread. then we eat lor. -HOMEMADE NUTELLA- LOLZ =X then siti dont wan eat hers. so nicholas went to dad's room and like *knock**knock**uncle we made chocolate bread fer u* LOLZ =X so diaooo lor. then. i had this crazi idea of HOTDOGS dipped in chocolate. o yeahh. haha. then siti dont dare eat again. so me and nick tried lor. haha =X then we made hotdogs again w melted chocolate this time reheated up in da microwave ovens. then was like. WOOHOO =D haha. then finally siti dared to eat le lorz. haha =X then 3 of us were like feeding each other and saying "MUMMY!!" lolz =X so diaooo. haha. yepz. and nicky's gonna make strawberries dipped in chocolate fer mi and siti tomorrow! =D haha YAY!

// chocolate roxx. esp melted ones. haha.

// hehe. thx to those who gimme cookies and sms-es to jia you de. haha. realli xie xie worx ^-^

tomorrow start streaming. first up in chinese tomorrow. and i havent even studied ANY chapters yet. sheez. i'm so dead. arghh.

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9:17:00 PM

Wednesday, September 29, 2004

chinese exam in 2 days time and i havent prepared anything. GEEZ. BIG TROUBLE.

yepz. today PE. no teacher mahz. then de relief teacher came lor. LOLZ. isH that "BIAN TAI TEACHER". *grins at mic* evillll. then de boyz kip asking teacher bring them down for PE. then teacher finally agreed lor. haha. then my backache was kinda like acting up *again haiz* and so didnt play handball in tat girls vs. boys tournament. chat with nicholas and siti. haha. crap sia.
physics test. i forgot to draw out all da arrows. haiz. gonna flunk it so badly.

after school. called mummy mahz. then was like she told mi it was her birthday. i was like. WHAT? ok . i'm sooo dumb. i dont even know tt today's my mum's bday lorr. soooo .
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!!
lolz. so was like went home n she was on da phone wif her business partners complaining here and there. pro mummy. haha. then she made me eat some kinda birthday lunch 'mian xian w egg n chicken' thingy i guess. lolz. niceee.
then went westmall mahz. then was like. wanted to change to da M1 plan. then they asked whether i got any frenz who use M1 plan. n i was like. other than evelyn . no?.. lolz. turned out if i call them it'll be free fer me. wahh. lolz. too bad i dont have m1 frenz except evelyn. all w starhub n singtel le. haha. so cancel that one lor. haha. then was like. saw a samsung phone. coz mummy oso got mahz. then hers is de dunno wat 700A de. then i was like. i wannn E600C. lolz. then turned out trade in my hp still nid to pay another $198. so diaoo lor. then at first mummy dun wan. then i was like. sad sad face for like 10 minutes. then she all of a sudden tell da person " i want to trade in this phone for that *points* " . i was like -AHH?- omg =X so happi man. and touched =D yehh. mum's bday and yet she's BUYING FOR MI. wah. lolz. then was like. haiz. saw mummy's face like a bit sad sad. lolz =X sorrii. >.< haha. can sms more le =D 700 free! haha. then yepz. coz she not carrying so much cash mahz. so the charges went into da company w my mum's card lor. =X opps. sorri. haha. then told mummy i having home econz exam next friday n i was making muffins. and she wants me to practice so she said she will buy mi a oven as soon as possible by this week. eeek. touched like siao. haha. =D lurveee mummy. lolz. ppl. i change hp number le horz =D

then was like walking. the guess who i saw. yar. HIM lor. was so slapped in da face lor. bout 1 year nv see him then all of a sudden juz appeared. think he didnt saw mi bahz. thank goodness. hmm. he grow a lot le but still look da same. onli more of a jap look now. lolz. then he and his frenz went into da library. and my mum juz HAD to go in. argh. hoping i wont see him. lucky nv. then came out. and he and his frenz rite in front of mi but they all didnt see mi lar. whew. then was like rushing to go home avoiding their direction as much as possible. geez. ok i'm too sensitive n touchy le. haha. yep. on da way home saw wenyan. =D haha. lalala. then charge ma phone. yepz. got two batt sia. dunno wat to do. lolz. hmm. blah blah.

// i change hp number le horz!!

// yar. and i hope i dont see him again.

hmm. sickkk. hope exams get over soon. lolz.

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10:19:00 PM

Tuesday, September 28, 2004

haha. today. was. like so... =X LOLZ

hmm. had bio test. mostly 'gonorrhoea' qns. eiyer. think i flunk it le. lolz.
then had to key in da wateva choice of classes and subjects fer sec 3 today. lolz. wif da help of afiqah. made my choices. hmm. now having second thots le. hmm. have till 8th oct to realli finalise bahz. shall think through again. lolz.
then today in class. dunno why like sad sad de me. >.<>
after school wenyan and others all came my house mahz. lolz. then on airon in ma room. then me siti wenyan nuanqin like cook hotdogs then eat inside. haha. the rest outside mahz. then oso. was like. so -ewww- . coz got COUPLES in my house go touch here and there. and to think we were watching FINDING NEMO at that time at e living room lorr. lolz. so -eeeee- lolz =X shall not say who in case u all go suan them. lolz. ok find i shall. SHAVIN AND WENYAN! =X lolz. then i v bad lor. left them both in my room then close down =X haha. dunno what they do sia =X shhh. lolz.

then marcus kor sms me. he say he wanna buy opus tickets from mi and he'll help mi ask his frenz =) xie xie worx! =D hmm. sorri horz cannot play candles w u at nite. lolz =X

and. yes ppl. I'M GOING TO BEIJING! *cheers*

// hmm. yar maybe sad coz of that bahz.

// i oso dont dare le. hmm. how.

// another regret. haiz.

eek. chinese and physics test tomorrow. like. -haiz- . lolz.

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9:54:00 PM

Monday, September 27, 2004

hmm. from left to right . top then bottem. me jasmine wenyan nuanqin yinghui.

argh. where's yinghui!!!!!! . aniwae. 2-6galz rox. haha.

lost in [[fairytale]]-land
10:19:00 PM

ahhh. science bio test postponed tomorrow. tian arh. w history test. =X haha. and to think i didnt study last nite fer bio today. LOLZ.

chat with grace and jeremy on da phone @ 1am this morning. then was like me and grace type on msn then jeremy cannot type mahz so he like replied on da phone. was totally strange fer all of us. but LOLZ. hey. its FUN. haha. jeremy sounds like one of my other frenz. hmm. haha.

ahh. and benben told mi he sell abt 100 tickets le. diaoo. trying to suan mi. lolz =X and to think its only september now. LOLZ.

today i was nutsss. chinese class. then teacher ask ppl to read passage then no one wan mahz. then. i dunno why la. but i just SHOUTED out. " LAO SHI! WO YAO DU! " [teacher i wan to read] -.- omg. ya. everyone staring at mi. yarr. i dont know what i doing oso lehz. sheez.
then mr seow crazi. made us stay back for an extra half an hour after dismissal time. juz coz when he was away then some ppl talk. aiyer. 1/2 hour. so guo fen. then hai mi late meet cindy. lolz. nvm was smsing all da way in school to so many ppl. then went limbang meet up w cindy and da rest w wenyan lor. then was like. mine and wy's leg muscle was like stretching painfully when we walked. argh.

i'm so dead. by tml must hand up da form for sec 3 2005 de class. fer streaming. aiyoh. >.< lolz. so fast. blehh. havent decide. haha. and chinese paper this friday. how WONDERFUL. i havent even read up on any word in de ci yu shou ce. argh.

// i miss band.

// communication and trust is what keeps the heart from breaking. [grace]

// if the heart is da strongest muscle.. then why is it da easiest to break?
answer:: becoz the heart cannot withstand the abundent flowing of true love. [by salina, nuanqin, wenyan, me. lolz.]

// like -urgh-. EXCUSE ME??

yar. and ppl. if u cant hear any music from my blog. hit da refresh button. lolz. k?

lost in [[fairytale]]-land
10:07:00 PM

Sunday, September 26, 2004

ahh. sunday. shitt. lolz. streaming exams in less than a week. and i have not studied. geez. lolz. look at my calender fer october. sheez. i'm DEAD.

hmm. woken up by da alarm clock. on SUNDAY MONDAY. sheez. how patheticcc. haha. hmm. did stupid housework. then watch Ping Qionh Gui Gong Zi with mummy. soooo nice. lolz =X hmm. then went on msn. and chat chat chat. lolz. what a way to start the day. lolz.

on ma way to lessons. got phone call from someone. aiyorr. must give her opinion bout love problem w a guy. hmm. then called the guy up. talk talk. then put them all together as conference. heyy. yeh. juz found out my phone can conference de. how slow i m. lolz. hmm. felt so much like an extra person there. but they werent talking . so mostly it was me. argh. the outcome. hmm. shall not say. =X

// hmm. sorri i couldnt go =X oppz.

// i want i want!! wo yao!!! =D

// thx thx =) haha.

ahh. tomorrow bio test. and here im surfing the net. like. ?

lost in [[fairytale]]-land
9:25:00 PM